i'm in PAIN...

GOD.. pls give me strength..

i needed so much... i'm down.. i could feel the pain..

pls took it from me.. i dont want the feeling of loosing someone tht i love..

i've love him once but i want him just to be by my side.. but i lost him.

i do lost him... i;m stupid.. i know is my fault.. pls gv me chance.. but..

i know.. no own could gv another chance..

but how could i? i've gv him a lot of chance..

by why do he hurt me so much... i know Bella is yours.. but i just need someone there for me..

along cant be the person.. but he's the one save me from you..

why LOVE is so hurting...

why do love hurt me so much...

why do i cry for him if he always keep hurting me??

why can't i love Teddy like i love u b4...

what did u gave me until is hard for me to forgot u..

but... for now..

i'll try not to remember you.. i've throw all things that i've been with you b4..

i'll try not remember all the things we've been doing together....

i'll try not to remember your looks, hair, laugh...

i'll try not to remember you family, cat and house...

i'll try not to remember your cry, your lie, your smile...and lastly

i'll try not to remember you name..

i'll try to vanish the memory of you in my life.. and i know u've removed me from you life..

and i hope you'll understand why i wont spoke or talk or even say hi to you if we meet.. is because..

I DON'T KNOW WHO ARE YOU...

and thnk you for everything.. and i hope u happy with ur future wife....

i'm not adibah dayana when i'm with u anymore OR the one u know b4.. 

i'm  the new 

 DIBA DAYANA

"  goodbye the one i love..we won't meet again.."

Even though you cant give me anything but tears
I still long for you
Even though I miss you
Holding it in hurts so much
You're standing behind our separation
You are probably doing fine.
You probably not hurting like me

Final Exam...

21st April 2010.. Ctu 101.... HUA~~ FINAL EXAM start!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tkut~~ seram~~ sejuk~~ nk mati je ni.. 

aku dh dpt ujian dr NYA. ujian DEMAM+SELESEMA+Skit PALE...  ape pun study x msuk pale....

paper agama jgn ingt senang ok.. paper agama la ssh sbrnarnya.. sbb ssh la.. ssh nk ckp mcm ne tp i could do it.. hope 2morro x pengsan je la..

good luck for me.. 

adibah dayana begum bte newaz khan can DO IT!

picture~~

fara fiqa n me...

barbie... from fara fiqa

from diba!! keropi!!!!!!!!!!!!!

from fara da watie..

life...

1st of all....

i would like to say tht i'm so sorry to my blog..

hehehe sorry for not update it for quite long..

bz.. hehehe

dd310388...

hehehe..

AH~!!!!!! i love being 22!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm 22 this year...

i got a biggest present this year!!!!!!!!!!!!

teddy bear from fara da watie..

glass from diba...

turtle.. name.. barbie (????) hehehehe..

and a fish named BOBO by A.G!!! kak ziana.. huhuhu..

Ita gave me a cake.. it is secret recipe.... chocolate!!!!!!!!!!!!

min min also!!! cheese cake!!!

i just fought with my dear last this week....

miss him alot though.. but we're ok now..

quite alot of my frens were sme and.. i jst dont knw wat to say.

i dont have any comment with it.. cos i'm not in the mood this week..

fought with him..

got frustrated with frens.. i jst dont know..

and scared with my study.... HTM120... i jst dont want to repeat it again..

i've been in this situation b4 and is so damn hateful.. dont wat it to happen AGAIN...

BUT...

i do got alot of things to do and i just love myself.. dis is me..

i'm not a persong who easily givng up on sumting...

so.. i need to move on no matter wat... hehee..

thnks to my mama..my cyg ekin...my teddy.. my frens all..

this is like... my new life in UitM....

what is life means to you....

AH PENANT NYE BRU BLIK DR BTN... IT IS  biro tata negara..

syok pun.. happy pun sbb dpt new fren.. ok tomorrow grammar test.. shoot!!!!!!!!!!!!11

kinda scared to take the test tomorrow..

ok bout my Cam.. hehehe great and very adventure..

1st day.... bsn.. sbb ya of cos dont know anyone sgt accept my frens tht i know.. erni n mila n qila n qistina..

best wei kwn dgn qila n qistina.. syok.. hehehe

1st best dpt kwn2 bru

2nd best dpt pngalaman dlm BTN and Cam dgn dak2 kecik molek yg blur2..

mungkin aku dh 22 kot.. so lh phm cpt..

2nd day wat pe ek.. hurm.. LDK... oh ya lupe.. ada ceramah 1 aku ngis sbb kesedihan.. remember my mama..

sister and my dear riza.. 

2org yg aku sgt kagum.. mama n riza.. they were so great... hope i could be like them..

oh god.. where's my phone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok ok found it.. sorry iklan jap.. hehehe

2nd day bout LDK.. mostly in LDK.. tht time we jst know eash other..knw who they r..

hehehe.. and we have 2 develope our own country and tht's hve to be me to done it.. GOSH...

dak Perancang Bandar. peh.. but is fun and is meaningful..

3rd day... hate 3rd day!!!!!!!!!!!!! we can't eat at all.. we have to find our way to get money to buy food n drinks.. giosh.... many things we do to find money... we need to find rm350!!!!!!!!!! 

hell wat!! and at night we could eat barbeque.. all tht have a meaning why do we have to find our own money to support our lives.. tht's how our parent's did tp us...

how hard they find it for us.. 

is really meaning ful.. and at nite.. slide show bout merdeka, our malay people nowdays.. our country.. and everything..

hurm..

and ya know wat!!!!!!!!!! KEMBARA MALAM AND I WAS DAMN afraid.... but at the end i could make it with penuh semangat!!!!!!!! one by one ok.. not berdua...

4th day penutup.. finish n we pack up to go back home.. bsn.. hehehe.. i'll akways remember the Cam it was so fun and meaningful...hua.. erni!! mila!! qila!! ten2!! tina!! qistina!!! miss u all alot..

n last.. we tdo dlm aircond!! jgn jealous!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What a day....

hehehe.. ok i wanna say it..

DIBA PRINCESS is so damn MANJA!!!!~~ hehehe...

kinda like her ya know.. she'll always like..

Kak Diba..mcm ne...blablabla..

Kak diba!! Blablabla n bla.. hehehe 

Kak diba, kak diba.. kak diba.. hehehe sometimes is annoy me but i jst can't help it so see her cute

muke 10sen.. hehehehe

and ya know what.. she got gastric 2day and her look..

so innocent.. hurm... kinda cute..

and2... at the evening ya know...what.... 

ROY!! u know her..

aku n fara and mila went to her room ask her bout fara's inner n ya know wht she say!!!

'fara.. sorry fara, inner ko koyak.. nnt aku gnti blik blh??'

fuck!! she use it yesterday and wat the hell koyak thing to do wit it??

if u;re such a big fat liar... u should deserve what i did and say's to u just now..

hell!! u're using people's money for what idiot! rm50 is a big amount and what u can say it tht..

'xpe la.. nnt la.. aku nye mslh.. aku selesaikn sndiri..' FUCK!! is tht and excuse for u 2 run away for

what u did??!! neh.. u deserve it more than what i did..

oh better not talk bout her..

and ya know wht!! is rainy day and it's damn heavy!! rain heavily.. what it right?? hahaha

i got a nice sleep.. nice rest at tht evening..hahaha.. to diba princess.. sleep tight..

hehehe..

i just can't stop writing bout diba.. she so funny!! scared to eat her medic!!!! hehehe..

and she bullied me at HTM class... oh no no no..

oh ok..i think i need to rest!!(sleep la then wat!!)

nite.. see ya another day then!!! hehehe

Diba, Fara, Pika(where the hell r u ha!!!!!!!), Fara fiqa, Mas, Kak Fara, Min n mila...

love u so damn much!! hehehe..

u're really a good fren to me.. hehehe eventhough u're younger then me.. Bulan is like a mother to US~~~ hehe jgn mara ye.. hehehe

MASLIYANA..

hua.. ada la ari yg sgt menakut kn aku.. ade la dak kecik ni kn..

aku borrow her belongings.. and then aku buat mcm hak aku la plak kn..

about a week..

pastu.. aku g la lepak bilik 6.20 jap..(bkn mmg slalu ker??)

hehehe.. and then.. dlm bilik tu.. si diba princess ade.. time tu selasa ah.. last week kot.. ye ah.. kn kn..

borak2 ah kn.. and then kak fara pun blik..

dier bwk air ape time tu.. oh ye.. air black current kot.. lupe da..

hehee..then she pun mkn dgn sepenuh atinye.. hehehe

and then aku n dib borak and fara just dgr.. and then..

lps dier selesai mkn.. dier buang la polestrin(mcm ne eja xtau la..)

dier pun dok beside me..then kiter ber3 pun borak2 la.. dgn tidak ku sengaja.. borak dgn hebat.. tibe2.. aku baring... and then terdgr la bunyi "PRAK".. tau x ape...

MAS PUNYA SCAFT!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!! wht should i do~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

takut pun ade.. seram sejuk pun ade gak la.. sbb mas kn.. mmg lmbut.. tp muke dier ganas..

hehehe.. bile teringt dier, teringt kakak.. garang ah.. seram... pastu aku ngadu kt fara.. tkut.. hahah lh dier gelak kn.. smpai ati dier..:(

kejam kn fara...

aku xtau mcm ne nk ckp kt dier.. i need sometime to tell her..

BUT THEN!! at night.. leh plak tengah borak2 sembang gile.. min n fara fika ngis.. dont know why tp.. mmg agak funny la.. bulan kte.."min aku x ngis kerana ko.." ye kot.. agak2 lupe la ayt dier. hehehe cian min

ngis.. tp slh aku ke? hehe x kot.. cian dier.. tp funny!! hehe

you all bce mmg ah x funny!!! lepas gelak mcm nk gile.. tibe2 plak fara tnye dh gtau mas lum.. aku

nk terkencing time tu.. xtau nk mule mcm ne..

yeah... x kn nk bgtau dpn org.. aku x suke..tp terpaksa la..

and then.. ade la benda jd aku x suke.. biar rahsia..

pastu aku pun blik bilik aku.. lari.. pastu.. mas nmpk aku ngis!! hehehe dier org pertama nmpk.. peh..

bkn senang nk tgk aku ngis ok.. hehehehe..

nnt aku post ye pic cekak dier yg dh patah tu.. ade g ku simpan..