i want to cry...

aku nk ngis,
aku skit...
aku demam..
knp.. knp tjd kt aku lg...
i love him so much....
ape slh aku smpi dier kte cr la aku bile ko dh sdr..
aku snggup elang dier.. tp... aku x tau nk ckp pe..
aku nk ngis.. aku xtau nk wat pe...

knp lalu aku ditinggal kn..
truk sgt ke aku..
xblh ke aku jd diri aku?
degil sgt ke aku..
mrh sgt ke dier krn attitude aku mcm dak2 kecik?
aku x pnh rsa mlu bile dgn dier.. aku yg rse dier yg mlu dgn aku..
aku xde mood.... knp..
aku... xtau nk wat pe... mungkin ni yg terbaek..
i'm so sorry...  i dont knw.
i know i'm the only one who is always make u hurt... but pls..
don't let me feel so alone now.. u're there when i'm down.. and now i'm alone..
i know i'm stupid.. but..
i'll pray for u.. always.. for ur happiness.. hope u'll find someone better..

love u so much.. riza...

CINTA DUA HATI LIRIK (gosh love it!!)

CINTA DUA HATI

Tak ku sangka dirimu hadir di hidupku
menyapaku dengan sentuhan kasihmu

Ku sesali cerita yang kini terjadi
mengapa disaat ku telah berdua

Maafkan bila cintaku
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Maaf bila kau terluka
karena ku jatuh di dua hati

Ku sesali cerita yang kini terjadi
mengapa disaat ku telah berdua

Maafkan bila cintaku
tak mungkin ku persembahkan seutuhnya padamu

Maaf bila kau terluka
karena ku jatuh

Maafkan bila cintaku
tak mungkin ku persembahkan seutuhnya padamu

Maaf bila kau terluka
karena ku jatuh di dua hati

Tak mungkin ku persembahkan seutuhnya padamu
Maaf bila kau terluka
karena ku jatuh
Karena ku jatuh di dua hati

i'm in PAIN...

GOD.. pls give me strength..

i needed so much... i'm down.. i could feel the pain..

pls took it from me.. i dont want the feeling of loosing someone tht i love..

i've love him once but i want him just to be by my side.. but i lost him.

i do lost him... i;m stupid.. i know is my fault.. pls gv me chance.. but..

i know.. no own could gv another chance..

but how could i? i've gv him a lot of chance..

by why do he hurt me so much... i know Bella is yours.. but i just need someone there for me..

along cant be the person.. but he's the one save me from you..

why LOVE is so hurting...

why do love hurt me so much...

why do i cry for him if he always keep hurting me??

why can't i love Teddy like i love u b4...

what did u gave me until is hard for me to forgot u..

but... for now..

i'll try not to remember you.. i've throw all things that i've been with you b4..

i'll try not remember all the things we've been doing together....

i'll try not to remember your looks, hair, laugh...

i'll try not to remember you family, cat and house...

i'll try not to remember your cry, your lie, your smile...and lastly

i'll try not to remember you name..

i'll try to vanish the memory of you in my life.. and i know u've removed me from you life..

and i hope you'll understand why i wont spoke or talk or even say hi to you if we meet.. is because..

I DON'T KNOW WHO ARE YOU...

and thnk you for everything.. and i hope u happy with ur future wife....

i'm not adibah dayana when i'm with u anymore OR the one u know b4.. 

i'm  the new 

 DIBA DAYANA

"  goodbye the one i love..we won't meet again.."

Even though you cant give me anything but tears
I still long for you
Even though I miss you
Holding it in hurts so much
You're standing behind our separation
You are probably doing fine.
You probably not hurting like me

Final Exam...

21st April 2010.. Ctu 101.... HUA~~ FINAL EXAM start!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tkut~~ seram~~ sejuk~~ nk mati je ni.. 

aku dh dpt ujian dr NYA. ujian DEMAM+SELESEMA+Skit PALE...  ape pun study x msuk pale....

paper agama jgn ingt senang ok.. paper agama la ssh sbrnarnya.. sbb ssh la.. ssh nk ckp mcm ne tp i could do it.. hope 2morro x pengsan je la..

good luck for me.. 

adibah dayana begum bte newaz khan can DO IT!

picture~~

fara fiqa n me...

barbie... from fara fiqa

from diba!! keropi!!!!!!!!!!!!!

from fara da watie..

life...

1st of all....

i would like to say tht i'm so sorry to my blog..

hehehe sorry for not update it for quite long..

bz.. hehehe

dd310388...

hehehe..

AH~!!!!!! i love being 22!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm 22 this year...

i got a biggest present this year!!!!!!!!!!!!

teddy bear from fara da watie..

glass from diba...

turtle.. name.. barbie (????) hehehehe..

and a fish named BOBO by A.G!!! kak ziana.. huhuhu..

Ita gave me a cake.. it is secret recipe.... chocolate!!!!!!!!!!!!

min min also!!! cheese cake!!!

i just fought with my dear last this week....

miss him alot though.. but we're ok now..

quite alot of my frens were sme and.. i jst dont knw wat to say.

i dont have any comment with it.. cos i'm not in the mood this week..

fought with him..

got frustrated with frens.. i jst dont know..

and scared with my study.... HTM120... i jst dont want to repeat it again..

i've been in this situation b4 and is so damn hateful.. dont wat it to happen AGAIN...

BUT...

i do got alot of things to do and i just love myself.. dis is me..

i'm not a persong who easily givng up on sumting...

so.. i need to move on no matter wat... hehee..

thnks to my mama..my cyg ekin...my teddy.. my frens all..

this is like... my new life in UitM....

what is life means to you....

AH PENANT NYE BRU BLIK DR BTN... IT IS  biro tata negara..

syok pun.. happy pun sbb dpt new fren.. ok tomorrow grammar test.. shoot!!!!!!!!!!!!11

kinda scared to take the test tomorrow..

ok bout my Cam.. hehehe great and very adventure..

1st day.... bsn.. sbb ya of cos dont know anyone sgt accept my frens tht i know.. erni n mila n qila n qistina..

best wei kwn dgn qila n qistina.. syok.. hehehe

1st best dpt kwn2 bru

2nd best dpt pngalaman dlm BTN and Cam dgn dak2 kecik molek yg blur2..

mungkin aku dh 22 kot.. so lh phm cpt..

2nd day wat pe ek.. hurm.. LDK... oh ya lupe.. ada ceramah 1 aku ngis sbb kesedihan.. remember my mama..

sister and my dear riza.. 

2org yg aku sgt kagum.. mama n riza.. they were so great... hope i could be like them..

oh god.. where's my phone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok ok found it.. sorry iklan jap.. hehehe

2nd day bout LDK.. mostly in LDK.. tht time we jst know eash other..knw who they r..

hehehe.. and we have 2 develope our own country and tht's hve to be me to done it.. GOSH...

dak Perancang Bandar. peh.. but is fun and is meaningful..

3rd day... hate 3rd day!!!!!!!!!!!!! we can't eat at all.. we have to find our way to get money to buy food n drinks.. giosh.... many things we do to find money... we need to find rm350!!!!!!!!!! 

hell wat!! and at night we could eat barbeque.. all tht have a meaning why do we have to find our own money to support our lives.. tht's how our parent's did tp us...

how hard they find it for us.. 

is really meaning ful.. and at nite.. slide show bout merdeka, our malay people nowdays.. our country.. and everything..

hurm..

and ya know wat!!!!!!!!!! KEMBARA MALAM AND I WAS DAMN afraid.... but at the end i could make it with penuh semangat!!!!!!!! one by one ok.. not berdua...

4th day penutup.. finish n we pack up to go back home.. bsn.. hehehe.. i'll akways remember the Cam it was so fun and meaningful...hua.. erni!! mila!! qila!! ten2!! tina!! qistina!!! miss u all alot..

n last.. we tdo dlm aircond!! jgn jealous!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!